One thing I always think about before I publish a post is who will be reading this blog. My boyfriend reads my blog, my best friend, and some other people. I generally post link to my blogs for my “close friends” on facebook. The thing is, I was planning on writing about something, and I thought, “will people judge me?” Why does that matter so much to me?!
In my diet blog I wrote about my bizzare night. I left out the dream I had because I don’t think the dream had anything to do with the HCG side effects. Maybe vivid dreams are a side effect though. Who knows. Doesn’t really matter. I have weird dreams all the time.
So, I dreamt that I **almost** had sex with a man that was not my boyfriend. I’m not sure what to make of that. Here’s a recap of the dream (it is odd):
D (I know this guy in “real life”) and I are trying to infiltrate some kind of religious center to get the scoop on their crazy ideals (I’m watching too much True Blood). We were imposing as supporters. For some reason we hopped on D’s bicycle and were heading to a different building. D had his shirt off and I was hanging on for dear life. I kissed his back. We get to the building and we were talking with various people (D had a shirt again). We were being really sneaky and got down to some of the lower levels. We were in this massively long hallway, which was desserted. We heard someone coming so we quickly made our way into a side room. D’s shirt was gone again. He made a comment (I don’t know what it was) and my heart stopped. I knew that he was going to kiss me and that if he did that that everything would continue to heat up and that eventually we’d be naked on the floor. I abruptly woke up.
I believe that dreams are just that – dreams. I don’t think that there are any “hidden meanings” behind the dreams. I do not actually want to have sex with D. There are many reasons for that. The biggest reason is that I love my boyfriend very much and do not feel drawn (sexually) to other guys. This dream kind of freaked me out though because I feel like I kinda cheated on my boyfriend even though I didn’t. I did wake up desperately wanting my boyfriend here so that we could get all tangled up in the sheets this morning… 🙂
I hope my boyfriend has a good day today. 5 weeks until he’s home! I’m so ready for him to be home…