Monthly Archives: January 2014

Moving Craziness.

Earlier this week a friend really punched my emotions in the stomach.  This was part of the conversation:

“Is your ex going to help move you?”
“I don’t know.  He’s being noncommittal right now.”
“At least he’s consistent.”

Ouch.  That hurt.

That all said, this friend has been tremendous!  He has let me use his garage to store all of my belongings until I can get into my new apartment.  He has let me use his bed while I wait.  And he has helped me move everything over in the last couple of days and will be helping me move it all into my apartment tomorrow.  I have to say he’s a good friend.  And he’s honest.  And blunt.

This is the moving craziness:

Last week my landlady said, “hey we have to be out by the 1st”.  I thought, holy crap that’s next weekend.  Then she says, “I need you to have all of your stuff out by Thursday night.”  WHAT?!  I quickly found a new apartment to live in and then had to figure out what to do with my things from Thursday to Saturday.  I have to say, my friend is amazing.  He didn’t have to let me invade his space and home.  I didn’t even ask. He volunteered.

As for my ex? He has a date tomorrow night and can’t help.  What-the-fuck-ever.  I need to let him go.  I need to move on.  This moving craziness needs to extend to my heart.  As I move, move on.  Just let it all go.  Try, try, try…

Heartbreak is a terrible thing.

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If We Were Still Dating.

If we were still dating, I’d be revising and rechecking and re-editing my checklists and address lists and guest lists for our wedding.  If we were still dating I’d be making final decisions on the wedding colors so that the bridesmaids and groomsmen would know what to buy.  If we were still dating we’d be getting married in 6 months from yesterday.

I miss you.

I love you still.

I’m sorry.

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Today’s Daily Prompt challenges us to teach others something that we know how to do well.


In the Fall of 2007 my best guy friend and I took several classes together.  This was the semester before our last semester and we were signed up for the required classes for our major (Psychology).  Two of the classes we had signed up for were in conflict with my friend’s work schedule.  The classes were taught by the same professor.  My friend and I went to Dr. Psych’s office to ask if there was any way he could take the classes without actually physically being in the classroom.  Dr. Psych looked at my friend and said, “If you have someone to take really good notes and to record the lectures, I will let you take the exams in my office.”  My friend looked at me and gave me that I-owe-you-s0-much-for-being-the-most-awesomest-friend-in-the-whole-freaking-world smile.  And he said, “I will feed you.”  I was sold.

That semester was my most stressful semester of my undergrad years.  But, I learned how to study like nobody’s business.  And now I will share that knowledge with you.

If you are in a core college class, not one of those bs filler classes and you want to excel, then follow these steps:

  1. Buy a spiral notebook, college rule.
  2. Buy mechanical pencils.
  3. Buy a digital voice recorder.
  4. Buy rechargable batteries for the recorder.
  5. Buy a flashdrive.
  6. Buy the correct book for the class(es).
  7. Have access to Microsoft Word.
  8. Establish ONE study buddy, maybe two.
  9. Get to class about 5 minutes early so that you can get a seat in the first or second row of the classroom.
  10. As soon as the professor starts talking, start the recorder.
  11. Write EVERYTHING down.  Everything that is written on the board, everything that is spoken.  Write everything down.
  12. After class, take the recorder with you.
  13. Between classes type up your notes in Word.  If you do not know what something in your notes mean or can’t read your handwriting, utilize the recorder and textbook.
  14. Save your notes to your computer AND to the flashdrive.
  15. Print out the typed notes.
  16. Get with your study buddy at least once a week to review the notes.  If you do not know what something means, utilize the recorder and textbook.
  17. Memorize everything.
  18. Remembering, death by dying is the only way to do it. (If you mix MAOIs with fish, you could die.  Just an fyi.  When I asked my friend what happens when you mix the two he said, “Death.”  I asked, “How?’  He responded, “By dying.”  We hadn’t laughed so hard in weeks.
  19. Quiz each other every waking moment.
  20. Speaking of waking, make sure to get good sleep.  I worked full-time and went to school full-time.  I didn’t get much sleep.  However, the sleep I got was good.
  21. On test days, relax.  Be confident.
  22. After tests are done, celebrate regardless of how you feel you did on the exam.
  23. After exams are given back, celebrate because you just kicked ass.

I got a lot of free food that semester.  And my friend got A’s in both of those classes.  Dr. Psych is by far the hardest professor I’ve ever had.  To get A’s in his classes was like winning the lottery.

So now you know how to study.  You will laugh and cry and maybe even bleed.  But the end result is definitely worth the pain.

Happy studying!


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Physical Pain.

I’m a trooper, in general.  I don’t take medication for a headache until I’ve had said headache all day long and I know I’ll need Ibprogen or Tylenol in order to sleep.  Even then I take the minimum recommended dosage.  That said, I do have a prescription for Flexiril for my back.  My doctor prescribed the pills a couple of months ago.  Since then I’ve taken 5 of them.  I could take up to 3 in one day (according the the directions on the bottle), but I’d rather only taken them when I truly need them.  I took one last night.  Between my period and driving over the past week my back was killing me!  I slept well.  I actually got to sleep on my belly which I haven’t been able to do in several months.  That was nice.

Right now my wrist is hurting.  My left one.  The one with the ganglion cyst.  The cyst of course had practically disappeared right before my appointment.  The doctor told me that surgery could never be done because the cyst is right next to an arterial vein.  Figures.  I think I have more wrong with my wrists than just the ganglion on my left wrist.  At this moment the goes across the top of my left hand and pain is felt in my wrist with every movement.  I probably have carpal tunnel.  I cashiered for six years and now I type away on computers for my job and blogging.  My right wrist hurts from time to time, but most of my problems stem from my left wrist.

Of course I did break my left arm/wrist twice as a kid.  I was – adventurous.  Haha.

I think I will be taking some aleve soon.

I probably have arthritis, too. Maybe.  Probably.

I tend to diagnose myself with various ailments via WebMD.

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Daily Prompt: BYOB(ookworm)

Today’s Daily Prompt challenges us to write the blurp on the book jacket of the book we’d write.  The book I’m in the process of writing is title Welcome to Social Work (I have another blog if you’d like to follow it).


From branch-wielding children and numerous flat tires to heart-wrenching tales and stories of cheer, join a classically dysfunctional woman on her journeys through life and social work.


This is going to need some work…

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Monthly Suckage.

Periods suck. Ugh!  Here are all the reasons they suck:

  1. I bleed for 5-7 days.
  2. I get all kinds of moody and bitchy and weepy and angry and all that about 7-10 days PRIOR to my period (this is known as PMS – PREmenstrual Syndrome. PMS is **NOT** the same as a monthly period).
  3. My boobs hurt.
  4. My lower abdomen cramps.
  5. I poop more often.
  6. I cry about stupid shit (like a spider in my bathroom).
  7. Did I mention cramps yet?  Ugh!!  They hurt so bad!
  8. I get irritated really easily.
  9. My back hurts.  My back already hurts b/c of all the driving I do.  Now my back really, really hurts.  Thanks doctor for the Flexeril!
  10. I get headaches.
  11. When I get a nosebleed I think about how I’m bleeding from two different orifices.
  12. I use a menstrual cup.  I bought it like 3 1/2 years ago.  Considering I used to buy a pack of pads and tampons every month and now I only buy panty liners about once every 3 months, I’d say I’m saving all kinds of crazy money.  🙂
  13. Cramps.
  14. My boobs swell.  I don’t need that.  They’re big enough, thank you very much.
  15. I crave chocolate like Popeye craves spinach.
  16. I am bloated which equates to I gain a couple of pounds.  Sure, it’ll come off after this bitch is done, but still.

Ugh.  Be happy that you’re a man if you’re a man.  And I hate you for being a man if you’re a man.  Just saying.


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Dinner, Movies, Sleep.

I had a nice evening yesterday.  After working 8 1/2 hours on a Saturday, I went to my friend’s home to hang out.  We went to dinner at Glory Days.  We’re both trying to making healthier eating choices so we got the nutritional info for all of their foods from a website and made healthier decisions than we would have without the guidance of that chart.  I had a Swiss Mushroom and Onion Burger with a side of Redskin Potatoes.  We spit an appetizer of Fried Pickles.  I drank water.  My entire meal was 930 calories.  For a restaurant, I’d say that’s not too shabby.

We had a good time at the restaurant.  We talked about social worky things, life stuff, jobs, goals for 2014, etc.

We then went and saw American Hustle.  What a great movie!  I’ve been wanting to see it (and I may see it again today) and since the time for that movie was convenient, we saw it.  When my friend asked me why I wanted to see the movie I said, “Jennifer Lawrence is in it.”  Then he asked what the movie was about.  “I’ve watched the previews, but I’m not really sure what it’s all about.  But it looks good.”  Lol.  So we watched the preview together and he came to the same conclusion I did.  And we both ended up loving the movie!

I got home just after 10pm.  I watched 1 1/2 episodes of Call the Midwife.  I kept drifting off during the second episode so I closed my laptop, rolled over, and went to sleep…

This morning I wake up and couldn’t figure out what had happened.  My laptop sits atop a small radiator (that I do not use).  When I woke up my laptop was on the floor, upside down.  Wouldn’t I have heard my laptop fall in the night? What caused my laptop to fall in the first place?  Thankfully I had closed my laptop before falling asleep.  And thankfully no more damage is done to my computer than was already done from my year of use and abuse of it.

I got up and went to the bathroom.  When I came back I realized that the jeans I wore yesterday were in the living room.  I remember stripping my clothes in the bedroom.  The rest were still in a pile at the side of my bed.  How on earth did my jeans get way over there?

Maybe I was sleep walking last night.  That happens from time to time.

Now I need to get upstairs, shower, and figure what I’m gonna wear today…  It’s a big day!  I’m going to hangout with my ex…  I’m kind of excited about it.  I haven’t seen him since just before Christmas.  And I really do miss the man.  I keep reminding myself that this is not a date (right?) and that I will come home tonight (most likely) and that I will not put up with any bullshit (absolutely!).

I don’t know what to wear though.  Jeans and t-shirt?  Jeans and nice shirt?  Too cold for a skirt, really.  Are sweats too casual? Khakis too formal?

Decisions, decisions, decisions…

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I have reached FIFTY subscribers!!  What?!  That’s INCREDIBLE!!

Who knew that so many people would be interested in my personal battles, drama, life stories, struggles (battles and struggles aren’t necessarily synonymous – just saying), joys, musings, and sometimes, mundane thoughts.

I appreciate each and every one of you!  Thank you so, so very much!

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Goodnight, Friend.

This week’s DP Challenge: Gonzo Writing Challenge


We got into his car at 2:43am after a night filled with raucous laughter and good friends.  I slid into the cold passenger seat, quickly shut the small SUV’s door, and clicked the frigid seatbelt into place.  I rubbed my hands together trying to bring warmth to the stiff bones.  He opened the driver’s side door as he fumbled for the ignition key.  As he sat he started the vehicle and immediately turned the heater on full blast.

He rubbed his hands together.  “You’re good people.  They’re good people.”  He was talking about the good friends who were still inside the old, rickety house.  These good friends that I had only met 10 hours previously.

I grinned, the right side of my mouth turning up.  “You’re good people. too.”  I closed my tired eyes, nodded, and continued to rub my slightly warmer hands furiously.

“I was pretty positive you would get along.” He cocked his head to the right, closed his brown eyes, pursed his lips, and returned my nod.

I sat quietly as he shifted into reverse and slowly descended onto the dark street.  He shifted into braked, shifted into first, and shook a cigarette from his Camel Crush pack.  After placing the pack in a cup holder in the middle console he reached into his front shirt pocket and produced a green 7-Eleven lighter.  I followed suit by placing a hand inside my hoodie pocket, grasping my pack of Camel Menthol Silvers and yellow Bic lighter.  We lit our smokes at the same time.  He released the brake and cruised down the small hill.

(20 minutes later)

He perched the vehicle on the sidewalk outside of my three story townhouse which is located in an overly developed development.  We each pushed the red button to release our seatbelts and opened our doors nearly simultaneously.  I swung both legs to the side and hopped out of the vehicle.  I grabbed my small, black, silver studded purse and quietly shut the passenger’s side door.  The freezing cold air made walking difficult.  I walked in front of the still-running SUV.  As I rounded the driver’s side he stepped onto the gray sidewalk.

“I would ask you to come in if it weren’t so late,” I said.  I thought, “Please come in. Please?”

“Yeah, I really need to get home and sleep. I’m going to dehydrate kale and sweet potatoes tomorrow,” he replied with excitement.

“Thank you so very much for inviting me tonight,” I said with a wide smile.

“Of course. I’m glad you had a good time,” he replied with his soft voice.

“I had an amaaazing time.”  I continued to smile.

He stepped forward and extended his big arms.  I took a step as I opened my own arms and accepted the hug.  I relished his warm embrace.  I lifted my face towards his and thought, “Maybe a kiss?”  His arms relaxed, his hands rested on my shoulders.

“I’m sure I’ll talk with you soon, my lady.”  His big hands rubbed my arms.  And then his hands slid to my hands.  And then our hands parted and he turned on his heels and walked to his vehicle.

“Goodnight, friend,” I said as I turned towards the red front door with my hands in my hoodie pocket feeling for my key.


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Living Arrangements.

What to do?!

I’ve talked at length with my landlady.  She herself is at a loss as to what to do.  She moved in to this townhouse thinking she’d be making commission with her job about last month.  Well now she probably won’t be making commission for another 3 months.  So, she can’t afford rent here and I can’t afford to pay (much) more than I already do.  That said, she has asked the landlord (see rent’s the place and I rent the basment-ish area) to sublease the unit.  So, now the place is up for rent again and neither of us know the next move.

  • If I get the job I interviewed for yesterday, I will be able to afford my own place.  🙂
  • If I don’t get the job, I need to find a different place (probably someone else’s basement) pronto.
  • If my roomy/housemate/landlady moves in with her bf, I need to find a different place to live pronto.
  • If she breaks up with her bf she might move back to her hometown and I will need to find a place pronto.
  • If she breaks up with or stays with her bf and they don’t move in together, we could find another place together with less rent/space.

Right now I like the last option best.

Did I mention (I know I didn’t) that my ex wants me to move back in with me?  So there’s that.  Apparently his sister is going to get them evicted and he can’t stand living with her and blah, blah, blah.  So he suggested we move in together if I get the job.  I said that he would have to understand that we would have to have a 2BR place with each of us splitting everything 50/50.  And I asked if he thought awkwardness would ensue if either of us started dating/sleeping with someone new.  His reply, “do you have a fuck buddy?”  Well, no, I said.  That’s not the point though.  I need him to understand that he’s not going to just waltz back into my bed and become my partner again just because we might live together.  He needs to prove that he can treat me the way I deserve to be treated.

So yeah.  How bout them apples?

Don’t get me wrong, I love the man.  I just feel this overwhelming need to protect my heart…

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