I aready posted a note on FB about New Years Resolutions. In general I find them to be silly and pointless because people generally disregard them within a month of setting them. For example: “this year I resolve to exercise more”. This is not my resolution. This is a common resolution for many people. People get a gym membership or dust of the treadmill and make exercising a priority for some time… Then as time moves on, the treadmill remains stationary or the gym membership is forgotten.
All that being said. I have made a couple of resolutions this year:
1. Live for myself. This is selfish and self-serving, and I’m okay with that. Throughout my life I have always put others above myself. I have bent over backwards to make sure that my friends and family are happy. I would stop what I was doing or put my plans on hold when a friend would call with a babysitting request, or when a friend wanted to go see a movie, or when my family wanted me to come to dinner, or whatever. There is nothing wrong with going and hanging out. I usually have fun. But I’ve always felt like I sacrifice my needs and wants in order to make those around me happy. I am a happy person. I generally love life. For once I need to stand up and say no to other people’s needs. “No, I can’t come out tonight because I really just want a bubble bath.” “No, I can’t come to dinner because I feel really stressed out and anxious every time I come over.” “No, I won’t drive across four states to come see you because I just don’t want to.” (That last one refers to my ex…just in case you were wondering.) I want to be able to tell people how I feel without worrying about how they’ll feel. That sounds terrible. What I mean is, I usually choose my words and actions carefully based on how people will view my words and actions. But then I end up being dishonest. My parents don’t know much about me. I choose to keep them out because I know letting them in will result in mad consequences. So yeah.
2. Lose weight. Yup. I’m making this a resolution because I know that I can succeed. :-p Maybe that’s a bit presumptuos, but I have a plan (well, I’m continuing my weight loss journey). I’m starting my second round of HCG soon. 🙂
Those are the only two I listed in my FB note. I’m not sure if I have any others.